Happy Mother’s Day, Mom.
You’ve been gone since January, 1976, when I was sixteen and a half years old. The cruel hand of death snatched you away long before any of us were ready. (Not that we ever are.)
I had only a few Mother’s Days with you. It’s been so long ago now, I barely remember them.
I barely remember you. I look at pictures of you now, and you’re almost a stranger to me.
What I do remember, though, is a sweet, compassionate, fun-loving, beautiful-in-every-way person who loved life, family and friends. Who had a great sense of humor and loved to laugh.
Someone who loved playing with her grandkids, and card games with her friends. (Does anybody play Rook anymore?) Who enjoyed a good game of Mad Libs on long car trips. Who loved going to Dallas Cowboys and Texas Rangers games.
Someone who took care of her little boy whenever he was sick, which was pretty often early on. Lucky for me, you were a nurse.
Someone who catered to my finicky appetite when I was little. If only you could see what I like to eat now.
Someone who saw something in me that inspired you to sign me up for piano lessons, the idea of which initially repelled me, but that I eventually came to appreciate.
Someone who laughed when I laughed, held me when I cried, and disciplined me when necessary. (Although, between you and me, probably not enough. But I wasn’t ever gonna say that. 😉)
You never let me forget you loved me. If only I had worked up the nerve to say, “I love you” to you. Just once.
I thought I’d have more time, you know. I guess we always think that. You just take it for granted the people you love are always going to be here.
I wish we could have had a grownup-to-grownup conversation. I think you would have been fun to talk to on that level.
I wish you could have been here long enough to meet the wonderful woman I married. I think you would have approved.
I wish a lot of things with you that, unfortunately, will never be. But, I guess that’s life. I just know, I’m glad I had you as long as I did. It was a wonderful, if terribly brief, life with you.
Happy Mother’s Day, Mom. Thank you for being so good to me in the time we had together. Thank you for all your love and care and support. You were the best mom I could have wished for.
I never said it, and I’m sorry for that, but I always felt it: I love you. ❤❤❤❤