Looking for Feathers




I am fundamentally an optimist. Whether that comes from nature or nurture, I cannot say. Part of being optimistic is keeping one’s head pointed toward the sun, one’s feet moving forward. There were many dark moments when my faith in humanity was sorely tested, but I would not and could not give myself up to despair. That way lays defeat and death.

Nelson Mandela, Long Walk to Freedom: Autobiography of Nelson Mandela


To be hopeful in bad times is not just foolishly romantic. It is based on the fact that human history is a history not only of cruelty, but also of compassion, sacrifice, courage, kindness.
What we choose to emphasize in this complex history will determine our lives. If we see only the worst, it destroys our capacity to do something. If we remember those times and places—and there are so many—where people have behaved magnificently, this gives us the energy to act, and at least the possibility of sending this spinning top of a world in a different direction.
And if we do act, in however small a way, we don’t have to wait for some grand utopian future. The future is an infinite succession of presents, and to live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory.

Howard Zinn


That was all a man needed: hope. It was lack of hope that discouraged a man.

— Charles Bukowski


It’s real easy for someone with depression, like myself, who tends to view the world through a rather dark lens to begin with, to abandon all hope in the future when looking at the state of things in the present.

The news is constantly discouraging, courtesy and manners have all but vanished from society, and kindness, compassion and morals are well on their way to doing the same thing.

I keep looking for reasons to hope, to believe in a brighter day on the horizon but, lately, despair takes up more head and heart space.

I guess it’s partly because, the older I get, the less faith I have in people. I’ve seen more cases of them giving in to their baser instincts, not their better natures. And the difference is in who they serve: themselves, or others.

Also, giving up hope is just easier; I don’t have to do anything. Hope takes work. If you’re gonna hope, you’ve got to care. And if you’re gonna care, you have to actively engage.

And that’s where the old blood, sweat and tears come in. Nelson Mandela spoke of “one’s feet moving forward,”; Howard Zinn talked about “the energy to act.” They knew what I still need to learn: hope isn’t a state of thinking or feeling.

It’s a state of doing. If I don’t feel hope, I just have to make some. People through the whole course of history have done so, when facing the most impossible circumstances. I owe it to them to do the same.

So, wish me luck. I need, and want, to find hope soon. And, I have a suspicion, a lot of us do.



Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all.

Emily Dickinson

6 thoughts on “Looking for Feathers

  1. Keep the faith. In spite of my own clinical depression, I’ve become more optimistic in my “old age”. I’ve learned that most people … when they stop to think about it … are trying to “do the right thing”. What creates “giving in to their baser instincts, not their better natures” is either not stopping to think about it or having an unenlightened self-interest. (“Enlightened self-interest” is when one has come to understand that one can benefit only when all benefit … that unless life becomes a win-win situation, one will always be left feeling want.) When one is younger … earning a living, raising a family, forwarding one’s career, etc., etc., etc. …, it’s harder to stop to think about it. When one feels “not good enough”, enlightened self-interest may be impossible (e.g., the 12 year-old in a man’s body who lives in the White House).

    All 7.7+ billion of us are necessary to the mosaic. Those who don’t know that need to learn. Those who do know already realize that we must (and want to) help … in whatever small way we can … the others to learn that they are valuable.

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  2. Great post, Larry. It’s been an eternal battle for mankind – hope versus darkness. You quoted great people who looked inside for that hope and manifested it outwardly…”and to live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory”….words to live by. Thanks.

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  3. I feel what you feel and get discouraged by our world today. I try to take a long long view and remember that humanity has had many ups and downs, many horrific things people do and many wonderful things, as well. I know it can be like a pendulum. I only hope I live long enough to see a turn around, because I do not think we’ve reached bottom this go around, yet. But hopefully, it will come.

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