People ask me all the time: “Stan, why do you write?”
To which I always reply: “My name’s not Stan.” (Where do they get that, anyway?)
Also, nobody asks me that, to be truthful. But, as a public service, I’ll tell you, anyway.
I’m obviously not in it for the money, since I don’t make any from this.
I don’t do it for the love of writing, even though I do kind of enjoy it.
I don’t do it to gain a following, though that’s certainly a nice benefit, and I’m grateful to you folks who do follow me; I hope you enjoy some of what I write, anyway.
I do it because I’m much better at it than talking.
Conversation has never been my strong suit. Still isn’t. Especially when it’s just me and one other person. I simply can’t think of how to initiate, or continue, a dialogue.
I usually think one of two things: What I want to talk about is so trivial, it’s just not worth even mentioning, or it’s so personal, I might say something I really didn’t want anyone to know. So, either way, I just stay quiet.
Also, there’s this to consider:
Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak and to remove all doubt.
The above quote, attributed at various times to Mark Twain and Abraham Lincoln, among others, has been my own personal mantra since before I ever even heard it.
By far, my biggest insecurity about myself is about how smart (or stupid) other people perceive me to be. As I’ve explained before, this goes a long way back.
I just know that when I open my mouth and say something, the person I’m saying it to is internally rolling his or her eyes, thinking, “Geez, what kind of idiot am I talking to?” So, if I have opinions, I generally keep them to myself, for my own protection.
But, when I write, there’s nobody standing right in front of me, waiting for me to say something, or to react immediately to what I say, so I’m in a sort of Safe Zone here with my tablet. Whatever you may think of what I say, at least you won’t be telling me directly to my face.
I suppose that sounds cowardly, and perhaps, it is.
I’d love to be able to say what I feel out loud more often, but in the meantime, this little blog will have to do.
Again, I appreciate all my followers out there. Please keep reading, and I will do my best to present you with something worth your time.